DIY

last week,jae and me went mid valley bought bear,flower,wrapper and small graduation cap(don know how to describe so use my own word).. Why we need buy? Because this saturday is our big sister KIat Ngee graduation day. She is pity her parents never come to celebrate with her so my naughty brain told me that we need give her surprise(hope she never read my blog). She is a good girl. The first day i move in Apiit apartment she teah me many things such as how to take bus,LRT and etc. When she cook she will share with me and teach me many things. I learn many things with her. This saturday she graduate already we are so happy about it. Tonight,jae sew the bear with cap and i wrap all the things together. For me i think very nice,how all people think? Here want to share our harvest.

Today a bit mutability

Today new intake orientation. I think around 400++ new student in APIIT. I am busy for lead new student to their suitable orientation room based on their study programme. After that, we went to auditorium listen briefing that student service boss Mr Anis given. He is a very clever leader. He graduated from Apiit in 2003 and now he is a manager for APIIT student service. I like to know good leader so that i can learn many things from them. I have a business communication lecturer Mr Suresh Naidu,he is also a good leader,i mean lead all student. He is a funny lecturer,i am very aadmire his communication skill. There are also many people that i am admire but impossible i can list down all their name. I like to learning new things such as language,knowledge, how manage different situation and etc. Haiz,nowadays quite easy to get tired..Is it my corporeity getting worse and worse? Sometimes i will think if any bad thing occurs also never mind because i am very tired due with it already. We are not god,we cant prevent what will be happen,we don know what gonna be for next second. So,just enjoy hours,every minutes even every second. Do what we want to do (not taking drug or other bad things) so that after we die either go heaven or hell also we wouldnt be regret why when we alive we never do....Human...please treasure what you have now,don miss any single chance.

A guy that i cant understand at all

I always think why he never listen for advice at all. This is my first time saw such a guy. Maybe different background so i am quite difficult to communicate with him. Sometimes i feel i am useless because i cant promote and i never carry out my responsibility. I always try to settle problem between members and him but i cant do anything. Sometimes i will feel is it i am busybody because i transfer what members want to him. But if i never do it,how they can agree with his position? I am a business student i know that if you want be a good leader u need to know many things. As a leader u cant be autocratic, you need to be democratic that tends to involve the members in decision making,ask for members opinion so they will willing to sacrifice their time or anything to be loyal with you. I don know what's going on with him before bring up a personality like this today. All people are different and we cant force people do what we want them to do. Sometimes i feel regret why i never study psychology so that i can help many people to find out their problem and find good solution. All above is all by my own crazy opinion and not for evaluate someone. If he see this blog i am sorry about that but this is about my own spirit.

Braces 3

Today went to hospital kajang again. My appointment time at 8.30am but i never go on time because impossible i can go early from Bukit Jalil to Kajang. Haiz...today not very scare because Sandra accompany me to go. When doctor said need to extract teeth number 4 from middle of top start count,i am shock and told doctor that if i extract that one when i go university and open mouth smile all people will laugh me. But not use,doctor said need to extract also.....In the end,i use less then 1 minutes time extract that teeth,more faster then last week....one sound "crack",my pitiful teeth success for extract....next apppointment held on next monday. What will be happen? Just wait, To Be Continued.......

Sick

Yesterday after bath gastric suddenly pain so i never watch olympic straigh to sleep from 9pm until today 11.30am. Today veri happy because jae and me decided to go sunway eat steamboat with kiat ngee, kiat ngee's friend hui ying and ellan. When we go out time jae suddenly feel dizzy almost faint down so i accompany her go back home to take a rest. Oh,my steamboat......Never mind,friend are more important. So,i cooked porridge and ate with her. Then, my dear mummy called...Haiz,she still cough and that two nephew still at home. Oh my god,mummy sick already still need to look after that two nephew so pity..Haiz,after i graduate and start to work,i will bring her to oversea look around all the world no need to worry about anyone....

what is a real women?

today i saw this article but chinese version. thanks http://www.zcom.com/article/1850/

i saw my bithday tree

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Is it i am like this???no comment...see how my friend think.

working or study?

I don want spent my parents money so i working in student service. All people always said i am very talkative girl and always smile. But in the office i am diferent. Everything i do i want perfect. In the office i am very scare talking with other staff. Actually i am very scare if i face many stranger, i feel like i am useless compare them. I always want to exceed myself. Thats why i am unhappy. Sometimes,see they do things very well i also hope that i can become like them but i cant...before i working i am very happy girl but after work i am very stress. I feel guilty because i am not the esther before. Before this esther will always went to library study but esther now want to show people i can do my job well and never study....i am useless,i am a student why i choose this way? I don like to be regret...Regardless what will be happen infront me,i wouldnt give out. That is the way i choose so i cant run away... Challenging is good for grow...i wouldnt give up because i am alone, i wouldnt let myself fall down infront of people...

regret?crying?

Today, i still can ate MCD with hui ying,sheau mun,carrie, and jacky. Haha cant imagine i still can use the other side of teeth ate the fried chicken. Sometimes feel like what they chatting i cant join them,maybe because now we are different class or maybe i really better to be alone....Afternoon,just realise that my mouth very pain. i not even know whether is my mouth cant open too big due to few years before that accident so injured again or allergic. Today,student service very busy. I am very envious all staff can lead the new student but i am just sitting there do immigration. Maybe that is for me to learn but not really what i want. I hope that i can be like them. I hope that i can learn many things and help them but i cant. Sir still never confirm me to be a full time staff. At night,i call mum and talk about my feeling about i am regret that do braces and i cry because feeling alone want to leave here...Is it run away is the way to solve all problem?? I dont know.....

braces 2

Yesterday,i went hospital kajang again.Everything are same,took lrt to tasik selatan then change ktm to kajang.after that, took taxi to hospital kajang. When do the teeth model almost vomit out,very uncomfortable. After that, doctor said need to extract 4 teeth. First,feel like yes i can do,and tlod doctor that in one day i want extract two teeth,i am damn crazy. But went happening oh my god. After took first injection when doctor want extract the teeth that was pain. So,doctor think that maybe medicine still never spasm,then wait another 5 minutes. Arter that extract again,but really pain so doctor decided do second injection. Finally success to extract that stubborn teeth. When extract time, really feel regret but i cant do anything because no choice already i extract one teeth already,i sacrifice one teeth already. That mean i still need keep extract other 3 more teeth. Yesterday extract one only already make me crazy.....all my mouth full of blood. Alone walking at the ktm,very lonely.....Now i understand what is lonely....very unhappy.....

my braces story start

Yesterday(31st july 2008), i went to hospital kajang to do teeth checkup. after that,i went to hospital serdang to take X-Ray. hospital serdang beside highway,i am alone went there. on the way very scare because i do not know the way. luckily i reach there and took X-Ray. but the bad things is i don not know how to go back. hospital serdang beside highway so do not have any public transportation passby. alone aitting there very scare,very helpless and tired. this is 1st time i scare to be alone. but finally one bus came i took the bus to ktm then went tasik selatan lrt until bukit jalil. i cant imagine i safe myself from bad condition. originally, alone is very scary things. what i can do? this also can call my 1st day braces story? Yes,because all things happenning due to want to do braces. Share my X-Ray(look like monkey)

blogging life start

12.20pm i m alone sat down living room start my blogging life. what i want to share with all people in my blog? still don know. but also need to thank for people who from today start read my blog.